How to reinvent myself?

Hi :) I am a 14 year old girl...well I turn 15 in early September. I have a real dilemma....everyday at school it feels like everyone is staring at me because I am overweight! I have never had a boyfriend and I am going into Grade 10 next year! I really want to feel included,noticed, and wanted I am around 195 pounds and Im looking to lose 5 pant sizes by September 1st of this year. I also want to recreate my image...if that hasn't helped already lol! I am 5"6 dirty blonde hair and green eyes. I don't want to change my hair colour or wear contacts because people will know Im a fake. I have moved for the summer with my family...so this gives me a chance to focus on me with no distractions. The one thing that woke me up is this guy that only wanted me for sex and when I told him no he insulted me saying I will never change and I will always be a fat loser! I found a quote online saying "The greatest revenge is doing something others say you cant do, so go out and do it!". This self esteem thing is also effecting my singing because last year at my school's talent show I sang well and I got in but I quit because of family reasons and I tried this year but I was so terrified of being judged by my peers I just left the room crying when my voice start shaking during the song. Someday I want to find the courage to become a famous singer. I know some say this is a hopeless dream but I know I have it in me I just need more confidence in myself! this is why I came to you...I want to lose weight, change my image, update my wardrobe, get better make up, etc. I know it seems I am doing this for others but I am doing it for me. It is effecting my dreams and ambitions because I am insecure. Im sorry I was rambling and thank you to those of you who read until the end but the sort of it is. I need new hair tips, make-up tips,various ways to lose weight without equiptment...and Im ok with not eating much cause I've already started that lol, newer more modern wardrobe because I will be thinner closer to the end of the year, and lastly even ways to flirt with a guy that makes you soooo never and tounge tied u wanna cry! LOL Well I think that covered it all so goodnight to everyone who is reading this and I hope I get some responses soon :) P.S If you could put a pin point on how much weight 5 pants sizes (Canadian sizes btw) would be to lose please let me know! P.P.S You're a beautiful person and thank you in advance for all of your help! <3 Please no rude comments because I've had it up to here with you trolls!

What are some songs you think i'd like?

vampire i think is the name of the band try that. and also try pandora that's the best ever i find new songs and new artists everyday

Question about general fitness?

The best way to lose weight is to eat 5-6 small meals a day, but have the total calories add up to less than your basic maintainance level (2500 for a man, 2000 for a woman). Use protein as a meal base, eat less carbs. Run daily for about 30 minutes, and weight train 4 days a week, 45 minute sessions. This will make you much more toned, and you may not lose a stone (muscle weighs 2 times more than fat) but you will look much better.

Do you like this sibset?

I am not really a fan of giving kids matchy names like that.I have to admit I like all the names because of the fact they are all spiritual.I just do not care for the fact they are all matchy.

Is there anything I can do? Stay away from her and see?

Except the facts, you're a friend to her, nothing more.You'll meet someone who does like you in a romantic way,

Where can I learn cheerleading?

I'm really interested in recreational cheerleading, but I can't find a squad or even cheer classes for my ablility level and age. :( I'm almost seventeen, and I have never done cheerleading before. I used to do gymnastics, but all my tumbling skills are very basic (cartwheel, round-off, back-handspring with spot). I was wondering if there were any squads, teams, or even just classes I could join near southern Pennsylvannia? Thanks

STOP Being a Tomboy and START Being a LADY?

i don't know what to tell you other than ask a stylist to help you. i don't know what you look like or your personality. you could wear cute skirts (not hooker-ish), nice flowery dresses, small heeled shoes (no stilettos), soften your hair (high lights, bangs) get contacts (if you wear glasses and can afford them) light makeup (something to bring out your eyes and cheekbones) and take care of your teeth!! no gold teeth or grills (whatever they call it). teeth should be pearly whites! speak softly, until the time not to (i.e.-when someone crosses the line and just needs a good tongue lashing, lol!) be gentle and fight the urge to beat up on the boys, and you will do fine!!